You could drive yourself crazy asking God why things happen in life. For much of my life I did. I asked why this happened or why something else did not happen. At times I felt the question was answered but more often than not I felt a deep silence on God's end that left me confused and isolated. It takes a great deal of courage to forsake the "Why?" of lifes suffering and disappointments but on the other side lies a treasure trove of grace.
- I want to ask why three out of my five children have serious medical conditions that have caused the whole family tremendous suffering. Instead I ask God how can I love the best in this situation.
- I want to ask God why after repeated prayers He allowed my children to suffer instead of me. Instead I ask God to let me see my family from His perspective.
- I want to ask God why He does not glorify himself by healing my children miraculously. Instead I ask how we can use this time to bring healing to the world by offering up our suffering and pain.
- I want to ask God the "Why" of a million different pains in my life but instead I need to ask Him what to do in this very moment to serve Him faithfully.
Please let me know of anyone you would like me to prayer for over the next several days here in the hospital.
P.S. While I was writing this the Neuro Surgeon came in and told us that Louisa would not need another surgery like previously expected! God is so so good. Thank you for your prayers.