One of the hardest parts of the Christian life is the long journey of learning to trust totally and completely in God.
Especially for those who feel called by God into a particular apostolate it can be a scary thought to trust that God has a plan.
We often ask God to reveal to us His will. We pray time and time again for Him to bring His will into light. Too often we get frustrated and confused. We wonder why God is not telling us His plan or why He is not allowing what we think is His plan to come to fulfillment. I have just two short thoughts on this matter:
1. To assume you know God's will could be your downfall. Unfortunately it is very easy to assume that because we are doing something good then it means we are doing God's will. We present Him our plan and then we assume He signs off on that plan because its aim is good. This is pride plain and simple. There are a great many people out there wondering why God is not blessing and leading their apostolate. It may be because the apostolate is not God's but theirs. They never asked God's will. Instead they just showed Him their plans and assumed consent. God is the beggining of true apostolate. No matter how bad we want it it will not blossom if it is not the creation of the Lord.
2. Do not misunderstand the way God reveals His plan. We would love to pray for God's will and have Him come down and role out a blue print in front of us and go over every detail and step. He would then ask if this plan fits our desires. This is not the way God leads us. God rarely reveals to us more than one step of His plan at once.
This is both a way to protect His plan and a way of building our trust. It protects God's plan because if He shows us more than one step in the plan then we would have more of a chance to mess it up. It builds trust because God wants us to trust Him enough to wait on His timing.
If God has truly called you to apostolate then He will lead you slowly by the hand.
Dave VanVickle is a Catholic speaker and writer focusing on the Universal Call to Holiness and Authentic Catholic Spirituality. He is currently employed as the Director of Evangelization for the parishes of the Catholic Community of Wexford, PA.