In my divine love story I have felt a whole range of emotions: bliss, peace, anger, desire, confusion, hope and the list goes on and on and on. One feeling I have never experienced is that of being comfortable, at least not for very long. I do not think there is any place in the spiritual life for "comfort". Of course there have been times when I have experienced the comfort of the Lord but I have never really been comfortable with the status of our relationship. If I get near the feeling of being comfortable it is almost a sure sign that I am on the wrong path and that once again I have let Pride grow deep within my heart.
Why is this? Ive pondered this during many a prayer time and my best guess is a very simple principle: God wants to pursue us... and ...God wants to be pursued. When I start to get comfortable with my relationship I stay there. Its kind of like a truce. The Lord doesn't want a truce. He wants a total and complete surrender.
It seems every time I feel close to Him my heart gets comfortable and because the Lord wants to pursue and be pursued He puts that sweet wound deep within my heart again and I feel that distance. Once I feel that distance I can do nothing but cry out for Him to come get me and run freely toward Him.
There are many reasons we sometimes feel distant from the Lord but that distance should always remind us of the need to pursue and to be pursued. Run to Him. He is running to you!
Oh my soul, take nothing as your own. For you there is God and God alone...